RedKingGold
05-12-2006, 10:52 PM
So, I just found out that one of my close friends from high school (I haven't spoken to him since 2003) has just died of alcohol poisoning three days before graduating from college. I stopped talking to him because he decided to take on a harder lifestyle before we graduated high school.
I was planning on having a reunion in my hometown this summer, and I was hoping to finally talk to him then. I came across in MySpace and messaged him a few times less than a month ago. I feel horrible for not being a better friend, and now its too late.
I guess I'll get that reunion after all....except it will be at his funeral. I'm more dazed than upset actually. Too many people my age do stupid things without foresight. I had another not so close friend (a fellow Eagle Scout) commit suicide in January.
It's just weird because these are kids I not only grew up with, but know quite well. I guess this is just a part of growing up. I feel truly fortunate to know my boundaries and feel secure enough in my future not to do anything that risky. It's still scary though because I do drink and drink a lot when I do drink (although not to the point of blackout).
Sorry for the post, I just felt like talking a little bit about it, and I somewhat feel comfortable on this message board. I've read a lot of the communitie's stories about tragedies that have happened to members (such as Icy, where my pain does not even closely compare to what you and your family is going though).
I guess (at the end of all this rambling), even though we all have our disagreements, its nice to know you can go somewhere to forget about the outside world......even if it is for only 10 minutes.
So, thank you to everyone for giving me a voice, allowing me to get some "inner-monologue" out and for being a community.
I was planning on having a reunion in my hometown this summer, and I was hoping to finally talk to him then. I came across in MySpace and messaged him a few times less than a month ago. I feel horrible for not being a better friend, and now its too late.
I guess I'll get that reunion after all....except it will be at his funeral. I'm more dazed than upset actually. Too many people my age do stupid things without foresight. I had another not so close friend (a fellow Eagle Scout) commit suicide in January.
It's just weird because these are kids I not only grew up with, but know quite well. I guess this is just a part of growing up. I feel truly fortunate to know my boundaries and feel secure enough in my future not to do anything that risky. It's still scary though because I do drink and drink a lot when I do drink (although not to the point of blackout).
Sorry for the post, I just felt like talking a little bit about it, and I somewhat feel comfortable on this message board. I've read a lot of the communitie's stories about tragedies that have happened to members (such as Icy, where my pain does not even closely compare to what you and your family is going though).
I guess (at the end of all this rambling), even though we all have our disagreements, its nice to know you can go somewhere to forget about the outside world......even if it is for only 10 minutes.
So, thank you to everyone for giving me a voice, allowing me to get some "inner-monologue" out and for being a community.