My last class out in Chapel Hill was tonight. I had talked briefly with a rather cute woman in the class each of the last couple weeks and asked her out at the end of class tonight. She is already seeing someone (or said that to be nice, but whatever, that's ok), a little disappointing, but I was really only at a point where I felt there was a little spark and a desire to get to know her better, no worries.
Anyway, point is, I haven't actually asked someone out face to face since college (online escapades/online dating in my 20s), and HOLY SHIT ITS SO HARD TO DO. Was it this difficult when I was young and really stupid? I'm so fucking happy that I followed through.
Also... I have had zero interest in dating since I got divorced, that has been a really long time. I haven't been actively avoiding the idea, just have not found the idea appealing, so I guess that's changing now. Ugh. Not giving a shit about any of this was a lot easier and nice while it lasted
