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Good a thread as any for this (hopefully brief) whine on my part.
I'm tired. But that's not what worries me. With the things coming our way at my house over the next 6, 9, howevermany weeks, I'm specifically worried that I'm started from too worn down to carry my part of the load.
It's a different level of uncomfortable than I've been at any point in my wife's ordeal.
We're bringing in (or at least TRYING to bring in) professional help for tasks short-term (and longer term if need be) but I'm still .. distressed. Over this aspect, along with allllllllll the other aspects that are more obvious.
I can't quite shut down the drumbeat in my head that sounds like "and it's only going to get harder ... and harder".
I'm trying, but so far, I'm failing to quiet that very much.
Not the best scenario when we have a 330a departure for her 530a port surgery looming in the morning.
I'm just venting y'all, don't over worry it or anything. I'm just looking for words I guess, trying to get my head around it all.
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