[Ksyrup]

Originally Posted by Edward64

This is really sad. It doesn't sound like you have a beef with them (e.g. this distancing happened before Trump) but yet grew apart.

You had a great childhood so what happened?

Eh, probably the easiest explanation is... it's me, not them. It's the internal struggle between striving to be a different/better version of myself and realizing that some things will never (and can never) change.

I happened to see Amigo the Devil last night, and I had this top of mind as he performed this song:

The distance from the man that I am to the man I want to be
The time it takes to realize time is the distance I need

But I was born impatient
And I was born unkind
But I refuse to believe I have to be the same person I was born when I die
'Cause change is alright
Change is alright

I'm not proud of all the choices I've made for a lot of my life
Following the shadow when I damn well know that behind me is the light

But I've lied to my mother
I made people feel like hell
But I refuse to believe I have to keep being cruel 'cause I'm a coward myself

But time isn't patience
No, patience takes time
Excuses will only do good if you're waiting around to die

Everyone is born with self worth
How easily it turns to doubt
It takes letting go of what we know we can't live without

But the blood in the water
It is the blood of my brother
We both learned it didn't mean a thing in the end if one was thicker than the other

And I've tried having faith
But I'll rot like a dove
'Cause I've always been scared of loving someone just a little bit more than I'm loved

Losing is fine
Everything is fine