[Izulde]

I hate having to buy my own presents. Hoping my also paranoidly reclusive cousin will be able to come up for Christmas, though, so we can have *something* of a holiday celebration. Won't be the same as the old days, with a big family gathering, or even the foursome of Mom, Dad, Cousin, and I up until the last Christmas before Mom passed away, but at least it'd be *something* rather than the shitty Christmas that wasn't Christmas at all last year I had in Vegas. I never want to experience that ever again.