Episode 8: Regrets
Apartment of Tim Hardy
June 23nd, 2012
She crossed placed her hands on her well formed hips and shot her lover a look of such spite that she was surprised he didn't melt from it. "Repeat that?"
He sighed. "I think you need to give up on this idea of yours."
Gloria Green, her fiery red hair somewhat of a mess due to the hour of the night, didn't like what she was hearing. "Be more specific, which idea?"
She was clearly baiting him into a trap. It was an intelligence test. If he backed away from the subject, he would live to see another day. If not...she'd rip him a new one.
"The 'I'm gonna be a secretary for one of the better baseball agents out there to score a big story and make me famous' idea," he seethed. "Damn it, Gloria, I know how bad you want to make the big time in the this business but journalism is about long, steady work; not about big time stories. They don't come around that often."
She got out of the bed, tied her robe, and walked to the window, staring out into the night. "I've tried that route."
"You tried for a few years..."
"Five years!" She yelled as she turned on him, her usually composed self falling away into a pool of fury. "I graduated at the top of my class...and what do I have to show for it? I got a basic job that gave me no movement at all for five years. Should I have stayed?"
He leaned his head back on the wall. He didn't have a response.
"Damn right," she spat at him. "I'm not you...I didn't sleep with my boss to get where I am."
He looked away from her, obviously ashamed at his past actions. "It was a mistake...I told you..."
"A mistake?" She scoffed. "You're still benefiting from it, aren't you? You're the leading Double-A beat writer for ESPN, aren't you?"
He chuckled but with no sense of happiness. "You make it sound more impressive than it is."
"It's damned impressive considering you went to a less prestigious school than I did and graduated 16th in your class." She sat on the edge of the bed and fought back the tears. "It's not fair."
She knew life wasn't fair. It still didn't help...still didn't make things easier. She didn't sell herself like the other girls in her class...she never mixed sex with her career. She never used it as a tool.
And instead of being rewarded for that, she was punished. People less qualified,
less worthy than her, moved up and she was left stuck. That's why she quit her crappy job and took the secretary position with Roe. The old man was a grump but he didn't hit on her; he didn't care. He'd rather scout a kid and sign him to a contract than nail her.
That was all well and good. She didn't mind that...she actually admired Roe's commitment to the job. But she couldn't be his secretary forever...she was digging, for something, for anything she could use to propel herself into journalistic stardom. She just needed that one big break.
It was part of the reason she was with Tim. He was attractive, smart, but above all connected; she needed someone with his connections for this to work. It was a damned long shot, she knew that...but it was her only shot at this point.
She felt his strong hands on her shoulders, and he leaned into her ear. "We'll figure out a way to make it work, okay?"
Cooled down a bit now, she nodded. She climbed back into bed and he entered it with her.
There had to a story out there in Roe's office somewhere...either buried or developing but there had to be one somewhere. She'd find it.
She had to at this point.
**
Rusty's Apartment
The jug of chocolate milk was nearly gone and Rusty continued to feel like hell from having so much of it. It was his stress drink...some people drank beer, some drank wine, some drank whiskey but Rusty had always drank chocolate milk. It had been his thing since he was a kid.
And damn it all, he needed every bit of that jug this night. Or morning...or whatever the time it was. Hell, what did it matter?
His eyes, bleary as they were, could still make out the article on his laptop screen.
"Traylor Rusty Indeed: Richmond Loses in Rout 9-0
By Tim Hardy
It didn't take long for the home crowd to know something was wrong with Rusty Traylor. Ever since that accidental wild pitch in practice earlier this month that sent the young talent out of the starting rotation, Richmond had been easing him back into things. Last week, he appeared in four games in a relief role, helping his team win three of those four. He seemed to be finding his fastball again, but especially his deadly slider.
He looked to be all right but looks, as we all found out tonight, can be deceiving. Traylor started poorly, allowing three runs in the first inning alone and for some reason was left in there to suffer for another three innings before finally, mercifully, getting pulled in the fifth.
His final line was not flattering as the bullpen preceded to emulate his performance the rest of the game. Traylor finished with 4 innings pitched, 7 hits, 7 runs, 6 earned runs, 1 walk, and 3 strike outs. His ERA was only 2.20 thankfully but his night was a long one.
Traylor, a highly touted prospect right out of high school, is talented for sure but just how talented is the question. The Giants, already loaded with pitching, took him right away in the first round and seemed relieved to see he was still there. Who wouldn't be, right? The kid's only 18 years old and surely his best years are ahead of him, right?
That's what the general consensus was around the league when he came out and many scouts still feel that way. But there have been other kids like Rusty Traylor with young arms, a bright future, and better years ahead...and those kids are usually the ones that never live up to the hype.
Pitchers are like quarterbacks in the NFL and centers in the NBA. They are a very tough position to scout-physical assets are only one component of a complex make up that results in a varying degree of success. There have been plenty "can't miss" prospects in the NFL at quarterback and in the NBA at center. A lot of them do miss.
Am I saying Rusty Traylor is gonna be on that list? No. It's way too early to make that conclusion but tonight, he looked like an 18 year old kid out there. All the talent, guts, and control he'd shown in his previous starts where he'd won an impressive 6 out 7, was missing this start. He looked shaky from the beginning and while the coaches may have thought "he'll rebound next inning" he never did. He just sank, like a stone, as he got lit up by one of the worst teams in the league.
Traylor should have waited another week before he came back likely, but with Richmond in a tight race for the division lead with the Bowie Baysox, they bet they could get a solid outing from their young ace.
The only solid thing Traylor gave them was a reason to regret putting him out there in the first place."
Rusty's eyes hung on that last line. It burned him. It was his worst game of the year, yeah, and he was leaving a lot of things out there over the plate...he just couldn't get things to go where they were supposed to.
And after the game...after the game was the worst. Jessica had stayed for the entire thing and Rusty had forgotten she was even there by the end of the first inning. He was desperately trying to claw his way back into the game ever pitch after that but the more he tried, the worse it got.
By the time he got out of the locker room, Jessica was waiting for him, offering him a shoulder to cry on. Unfortunately he was pissed at himself and his performance. He blew her off and didn't even bother to hear what she had to say. He just wanted to be alone.
Out of everything, that might have been the worst thing he did that night.
She still wouldn't return his texts. He didn't want to call and get voicemail...he was going to be pathetic and leave a bunch of voicemails for her. He just wanted to apologize...
Clutching his stomach with his hand, he let out a sickening burp. "Maybe I should apologize to you first," he said, referencing his stomach. All that chocolate milk wasn't sitting well with him.
That figured.