Keep in mind this is probably the stupidest thing you'll have ever read on this site. So, please continue well-knowing that I am completely aware of the absurdity of this post. It's just that... you guys may be able to help me while my residents have not been so helpful.
So there's this girl I've been crushing on this entire school year that lives in my dorm. She has work hours at the front desk, so I tend to see her rather often. She also works at the softball stadium, which I do now as well. We have the same "job", though... so when we work, it's never together. But during the first semester I only saw her at those times, so at that point I knew two things about her: she's very pretty, and she must like softball.
Then there's the whole spotlight effect (psychologically speaking) where I get the feeling that she's smiling at me and acknowledging me personally when I pass by her in the lobby, etc. With that in mind, I finally get the guts one day to talk to her. Keep in mind that I never even knew her name for six months. I don't even directly talk to her the first time though... I ask her for the keys to the music room so I could play guitar. So I do that, play for a while, then return after having broken a string. She asks how I broke it, I explain that I was tuning the string (lol), and somehow that turned into a long conversation. It was awesome, I really felt on top of the world and what not.
Having found out her name that day, I looked her up on Facebook and sent her a friend request. She accepted, and it was then that I found out she had a boyfriend that goes to Boston College. At the time, it was very heartbreaking, and it still is... but I still go about my business to "indirectly" find ways to talk to her, just so we can become great friends either way.
Well, tonight her and her sorority friend were roaming the halls of this building doing this thing for the visually impaired or something, I don't know I wasn't really listening, I was more kind of like, "She's in my room... YES!" Anyway, whatever they asked for I cooperated, so I paid them $5 and they went on their way.
About a half hour later, I walk out of my room and see my friend and his girlfriend walking by (and they already know about my obsession with this girl), and I say, "Did Candice come by your room?" They say yes, and then I go off like with this whole, "Yeeah! Hell yeeah! Man, I totally paid her, and it was just because of her. She's worth every penny man. Yeeah! You should've seen the look on my face when Candice came in the room. Yeeah!" Then I start walking down my hall and notice that she is STILL IN THE HALL! And then I let out an "OH ****!" and find my way into a door as quickly as possible.
There is no way that she could not have heard me. I seriously couldn't have been any louder. I really think I blew it. Like, I think I blew any chance of ever being with her, as well as like the great friendship I had created with her, especially if she knows that I think about her that way. Tomorrow will be the true test to know if she heard me, since I'll pass by her coming back from class as she works the desk. I'll just be able to read her if she doesn't directly confront me. That said, the way that this whole thing happened, if she did indeed hear me, then she knows that I know that she heard me. Because of that, if I try to act cool like nothing happened, she'll catch onto that.
I think I blew everything, but I really don't know. I realize this is a very stupid story and problem, but I don't like girls very often (at least not to the extent that I've liked them all year), and just when I thought everything was going great, I had to be so damn loud. I mean, what in the hell were they doing on our floor still 30 minutes later?
I guess it didn't help that I was in Spongebob pajama pants.
So, what do you think? Did I blow anything? Do I go on as if nothing happened? Should I still try and talk to her and stuff, or did I just put her in a totally awkward position? Keep in mind that she has a boyfriend, and if she knows that I've been trying to... well... "detach" her from him, then she might not be as "friendly" to me anymore. In that regard, I'm wondering if I should be out of her way for a little while or something.
Thanks for reading.
So there's this girl I've been crushing on this entire school year that lives in my dorm. She has work hours at the front desk, so I tend to see her rather often. She also works at the softball stadium, which I do now as well. We have the same "job", though... so when we work, it's never together. But during the first semester I only saw her at those times, so at that point I knew two things about her: she's very pretty, and she must like softball.
Then there's the whole spotlight effect (psychologically speaking) where I get the feeling that she's smiling at me and acknowledging me personally when I pass by her in the lobby, etc. With that in mind, I finally get the guts one day to talk to her. Keep in mind that I never even knew her name for six months. I don't even directly talk to her the first time though... I ask her for the keys to the music room so I could play guitar. So I do that, play for a while, then return after having broken a string. She asks how I broke it, I explain that I was tuning the string (lol), and somehow that turned into a long conversation. It was awesome, I really felt on top of the world and what not.
Having found out her name that day, I looked her up on Facebook and sent her a friend request. She accepted, and it was then that I found out she had a boyfriend that goes to Boston College. At the time, it was very heartbreaking, and it still is... but I still go about my business to "indirectly" find ways to talk to her, just so we can become great friends either way.
Well, tonight her and her sorority friend were roaming the halls of this building doing this thing for the visually impaired or something, I don't know I wasn't really listening, I was more kind of like, "She's in my room... YES!" Anyway, whatever they asked for I cooperated, so I paid them $5 and they went on their way.
About a half hour later, I walk out of my room and see my friend and his girlfriend walking by (and they already know about my obsession with this girl), and I say, "Did Candice come by your room?" They say yes, and then I go off like with this whole, "Yeeah! Hell yeeah! Man, I totally paid her, and it was just because of her. She's worth every penny man. Yeeah! You should've seen the look on my face when Candice came in the room. Yeeah!" Then I start walking down my hall and notice that she is STILL IN THE HALL! And then I let out an "OH ****!" and find my way into a door as quickly as possible.
There is no way that she could not have heard me. I seriously couldn't have been any louder. I really think I blew it. Like, I think I blew any chance of ever being with her, as well as like the great friendship I had created with her, especially if she knows that I think about her that way. Tomorrow will be the true test to know if she heard me, since I'll pass by her coming back from class as she works the desk. I'll just be able to read her if she doesn't directly confront me. That said, the way that this whole thing happened, if she did indeed hear me, then she knows that I know that she heard me. Because of that, if I try to act cool like nothing happened, she'll catch onto that.
I think I blew everything, but I really don't know. I realize this is a very stupid story and problem, but I don't like girls very often (at least not to the extent that I've liked them all year), and just when I thought everything was going great, I had to be so damn loud. I mean, what in the hell were they doing on our floor still 30 minutes later?
I guess it didn't help that I was in Spongebob pajama pants.
So, what do you think? Did I blow anything? Do I go on as if nothing happened? Should I still try and talk to her and stuff, or did I just put her in a totally awkward position? Keep in mind that she has a boyfriend, and if she knows that I've been trying to... well... "detach" her from him, then she might not be as "friendly" to me anymore. In that regard, I'm wondering if I should be out of her way for a little while or something.
Thanks for reading.
Don't mean to be a douche, but those are probably the only two statements in your post that have any significance.
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