First things first... yes I have recently ended my 4 year relationship/engagement, but it was a fairly mutual agreement in the end and although it's gonna hurt, regardless because of the amount of time and effort we put in, I can say pretty confidently that I'm not on the rebound so to speak.
Anyway, I've grown really close to this woman I work with. Really quickly too. As friends I guess.
2 weekends ago we talked on the phone for 10 hours in the one day. That was followed by 6 hours the next day and catching a movie, lunch and a walk in the park the day after.
Everyday for the next week we were on the phone again for 3-6 hours every night. Pretty much opening up about anything and everything, both more than we've ever told anyone before strangely.
Pretty serious and intense I guess. But the thing is, she is so different from me. Almost opposite's I guess.
She's quite the extrovert and extremely vain, but for some reason it doesn't bother me. Then the things that do bother me, like the fact that she is pretty open with her sexuality and need for 'booty calls' still aren't enough to put me off.
She's just finalising her divorce to a guy who treated her badly and by the sounds of it has never been treated like a princess and wouldn't know how to take it if she were. Me on the other hand, have always treated girlfriends like that I guess and she knows that.
I'm would be totally content with having her as a best friend for life (something we've already talked about) because she is that much of a special person to me but I am really falling for her. There's just a different connection with us and an extremely deep feeling of mutual understanding and care.
I'm 30 years old and think this stuff is for teenagers, yet when I am with her at work, my stomach just churns and my heart beats a hundred miles an hour. It's crazy.
So yeah, some of the stuff she says and does, can bother me but why I am still crazy about her?
In the beginning there were signs that she wanted to be more than friends but she actually said to another friend of mine that she would like to date me but is worried she'd break my heart and even that I knew she would.
Now though, I'm getting a lot of signs that she is really backing off.
Anyway, that's not the important thing. If she doesn't want more than a friendship that's cool, but it's not making my pain any better. I'm a grown man who's falling for possibly, the totally wrong woman. I don't get life.
Anyway, I've grown really close to this woman I work with. Really quickly too. As friends I guess.
2 weekends ago we talked on the phone for 10 hours in the one day. That was followed by 6 hours the next day and catching a movie, lunch and a walk in the park the day after.
Everyday for the next week we were on the phone again for 3-6 hours every night. Pretty much opening up about anything and everything, both more than we've ever told anyone before strangely.
Pretty serious and intense I guess. But the thing is, she is so different from me. Almost opposite's I guess.
She's quite the extrovert and extremely vain, but for some reason it doesn't bother me. Then the things that do bother me, like the fact that she is pretty open with her sexuality and need for 'booty calls' still aren't enough to put me off.
She's just finalising her divorce to a guy who treated her badly and by the sounds of it has never been treated like a princess and wouldn't know how to take it if she were. Me on the other hand, have always treated girlfriends like that I guess and she knows that.
I'm would be totally content with having her as a best friend for life (something we've already talked about) because she is that much of a special person to me but I am really falling for her. There's just a different connection with us and an extremely deep feeling of mutual understanding and care.
I'm 30 years old and think this stuff is for teenagers, yet when I am with her at work, my stomach just churns and my heart beats a hundred miles an hour. It's crazy.
So yeah, some of the stuff she says and does, can bother me but why I am still crazy about her?
In the beginning there were signs that she wanted to be more than friends but she actually said to another friend of mine that she would like to date me but is worried she'd break my heart and even that I knew she would.
Now though, I'm getting a lot of signs that she is really backing off.
Anyway, that's not the important thing. If she doesn't want more than a friendship that's cool, but it's not making my pain any better. I'm a grown man who's falling for possibly, the totally wrong woman. I don't get life.
I don't know if the girl I liked was that much different then me then I would just be friends. Exspecially if she is open about sex, to me that is personal, but that is just the way I was raised. Any ways good luck bro.
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