I just got thoroughly owned by my mother via phone call. Totally deserved it, but still sucks. I'm 21, live at home, don't like little children, so obviously watching her 1 year old son (my half brother) for a few hours is up my alley. I tweet "(bad word) tonight", she follows me, I get a 20 minute angry screaming message. Thing is, it was a multitude of things that led to that tweet, not simply her and her husband going out for dinner that forced the words. When she gets mad, there is literally no changing her mind once it is made up..She's right, and if I tell her it's something else that may have triggered it, I'm lying...
At the same time, I should have been more responsible and mature. I have a few medical issues that sometimes impede my ability to think like an adult as much as I'd like, and it sucks because I want to be treated as an adult, but give her no reason or incentive to do so. It's difficult for me to convey that I really had no issue with them going out, but the combination of a few little things and then providing for a toddler wasn't the best mix.
Before you guys say anything, no I don't plan on having children of my own in the next 5-8 years. I am nowhere near capable of handling the constant need.
As much as it's me being a whiny brat and what not (call it rebellion, if you must)...at the same time, she chose to bring a third child into the world, not me. It's a mental battle vs myself of what I know is right and how I feel. Unfortunately, usually the latter wins out and I come out looking like a complete self-centered jerk.
My fault.
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