Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

[ImTellinTim]

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The crimes I admitted to I was caught, charged, and have been done with for years anyway. I guess bmore and ImTellinTim are in deep **** though lol.

Trust me. Charges would never be brought against me, lol

[nc0ffey]

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Can't say it enough, LOTS of brave folks in here. Threads like this really help show the strong sense of brotherhood here at OS.

[dingleberryfinn]

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You better delete that post unless you want these guys showing up at your house.

Nah, now they send these guys-

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[TripleCrown9]

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Nah, now they send these guys-

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I'll just say "These aren't the droids you're looking for..." and I'll be good. And then George Lucas will come after me for royalties. And then I'll run, but we're both pretty out of shape. I will barely escape, owning the edge in age.

Come on, you act like I haven't thought this through.

[Fly3]

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In 4th grade, a kid a year older than me convinced me to have sex with him.

Well, then...

[Kramer5150]

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Interesting thread....alot has been admitted,to that I give a serious .

As for myself,I suffer from depression and also have a social phobia. I am currently seeing a DR. as well as a counselor.....about 2 weeks ago,I told my wife to hide my sleeping pills,as I was considering taking them in hopes to never wake up.
I also have osteo arthritis in both my knees,so even trying to walk is rough.

I am unable to work due to my illnesses,and just recently had my hearing for Social security. At 44,this really sucks...so I say this to you youngsters here at OS....

Please take care of yourself,and don't take anything for granted.

[Beantown]

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If Khelis hadn't put the boot down on triple-x rated stories, I could've topped the in-class hanky-panky story. Shame.



-I lie. A lot. Usually little things, but every now and then I pull out a big one. I once convinced a girl (the same girl that I then left crying on a NY city street corner if anyone remembers that story) that my dad was a raging alcoholic and beat me when I was a kid. I pretty much stole the speech from Good Will Hunting. She had just told me she got raped or drugged or something and didn't want to be with me because she was damaged so I created a damaging story and she fell in love with me.

There's probably a lot more, but most are probably not TOS appropriate.


Thought of one that isn't TOS-breakable:

I did not go out once during junior or senior year of HS. Spent every weekend night at home playing games with people from OS or writing with my writing group.

[DamnYanks2]

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I live in the past more then I do in the present. I have an annoying fascination with going back in time. And I really try not too, I try to live in the present and look toward the future.

Sometimes it's stupid stuff, like why didn't I ask that girl out in junior high, or why didn't I sleep with that girl, when she gave me all the signals. Opportunities that are just wasted, drive me crazy. If I could go back to high school, and be the person I am now. It would be game over. But those things are trivial, and yet they bother me.

The biggest thing that bothers me though, is living this life without some of the people that used to be a big part of it. Not having my Dad there to talk about sports, or sit down and watch a game together anymore, just makes living in the present not as fun.

I don't enjoy life near as much, as I used too, and I'm very bitter about certain things, I'm definitely not the positive person I once was, and I'm still a very angry person, and I question alot of things, and I'm always wondering what my purpose is on this earth.

[oneamongthefence]

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Just kidding. I don't think I have that actual disorder, but there are some emotions that I either haven't experienced, or can't experience for whatever reason.

I don't really feel the full range. It's hard to connect with people on an emotional level.

From my fingers to your eyes...

[Jr.]

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-I lie. A lot. Usually little things, but every now and then I pull out a big one. I once convinced a girl (the same girl that I then left crying on a NY city street corner if anyone remembers that story) that my dad was a raging alcoholic and beat me when I was a kid. I pretty much stole the speech from Good Will Hunting. She had just told me she got raped or drugged or something and didn't want to be with me because she was damaged so I created a damaging story and she fell in love with me.

I do this too. It's a compulsion for me. I lie even when I'm not trying to. My girlfriend will ask if I've taken the dog out recently and I'll say that I have even if I haven't. I don't know why.

I'm at the point now where there are stories from my childhood that I don't know if they actually happened, or if I made them up so long ago and have continued to tell them that they seem like they could be real.

[Beantown]

I do this too. It's a compulsion for me. I lie even when I'm not trying to. My girlfriend will ask if I've taken the dog out recently and I'll say that I have even if I haven't. I don't know why.

I'm at the point now where there are stories from my childhood that I don't know if they actually happened, or if I made them up so long ago and have continued to tell them that they seem like they could be real.

Yup. Ill lie about ridiculous small thing for no reason. I think about it after every time. "Why the **** did I lie about that?"

Stupid little **** like having seen a movie or a certain game or something.

[z Revis]

Trust me. Charges would never be brought against me, lol

Lol I know. Matrix is the one that really needs to worry as I'm positive they're still looking for who killed that man in Reno. Fortunately he can ban any investigator that creates an acct to view this part of OS. Lol

Anyway a couple more I don't like to share with people:

-My dad is a "working alcoholic"(an alcoholic that doesn't allow his problem to interfere with work.. I guess that's a legitimate term in the therapy/counseling world) so as you can imagine I had a fairly rough/drama filled upbringing. Well, it doesn't get much worse than fist fighting with your own father. Thats happened twice in my life. First incident happened over a party I threw at my house when my parents went out of town. They came home early and crashed it. Sent everyone home, dad and I started arguing, one thing lead to another before we were both going at it with a couple punches thrown until my mom broke it up. 2nd incident happened not that long ago actually. It was over something extremely petty and this time we both had alcohol in our system which just escalated things. But believe it or not my dad and I are actually great friends and have a good relationship. It's when we butt heads things can get a little nasty. I'm a laid back guy, but I'm known to have a very bad temper.

-This one is my biggest secret going on right now in my life. I don't have very many friends. As a lot of you may know I grew up in Indiana and lived there for most of my life. Well 3 and a half years ago I moved to Florida. Since moving I have only met 3 people I would consider friends and all are from work. Only 2 of which have I done things with outside of work and it was just a couple times. We're not close at all. It sucks. I miss my life in Indy(at least the social part anyway). Anytime people at work or elsewhere(such as my friends back home in indy) ask, I either avoid the conversation or constantly lie to them about my life to make them think I'm some big shot 23 year old with a girlfriend and friends up the wazoo when in reality it's the complete opposite. Knock on my door anytime I'm not at work and you'll find me at home just about everytime.

I don't consider myself socially awkward, but it's hard making friends in a new place if you're not in school or you work at a small company with not many people your age like I do. I don't want to go somewhere by myself either. Like to a bar or something similar. It just seems weird and I'd feel out of place.

To be honest there's a reason I don't post in the OS most wanted picture thread. A lot of people in there post pics of them with their friends, girlfriends, wife etc. What am I going to post? Me with my dog? Lol.

EDIT: This is also why I don't have a Facebook. And I might say things like "I don't see the point in using Facebook" or "it's overrated" but the truth is I don't want family members or my old friends finding out about my lonely life.

Sorry for the long post, but I must say it feels good to get that off my chest.



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[BurghFan]

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I have CHARGE Syndrome. It's a defect of embryonic development with CHARGE being an acronym for 6 of the more common findings. I have defects of the eyes and inner ear and this is the reason behind my hearing and visual impairments as well as my near nonexistent sense of smell that some of you may remember me mentioning from time to time. My case is actually fairly mild though.

Growing up was tough as I always had a hard time fitting in and making friends. I still suffer from depression and low self-esteem and am basically a loner.

I actually don't mind talking to people about having CHARGE syndrome and in fact will share a rather humorous story that was basically the insane conincidence to end all insane conincidents. As some of you may know, I am very interested in human genetics and received my Masters in that field a few years ago. One morning while meeting with my adviser, she asked me if I had ever attended the Human Genetics Case Conference which meet most Thursdays and are a required course of genetic counseling but not masters students. I had not and she asked/suggested that I come to the one that morning which I did. I will also add that I had previously told her about having CHARGE. Well, I got there and (I won't bore you with what the 1st cases were about) and the 3rd case was presented by a woman who had by chance been sitting next to me during the first 2 cases. As she started giving details of the case history I realized that it sounded an awful lot like CHARGE and when she queried the audience if anyone had a guess as to a diagnosis, I quickly volunteered my guess and was correct. My adviser later said they she'd known what the first to cases were about, but had no idea the 3rd case was a case of CHARGE. I hung around for a few minutes after the class ended and talked to the presenter. She was wondering how I got it so fast and I informed her of my own diagnosis. So in short, the very first case conference that I attended included a case of CHARGE syndrome that was presented by the person who had been sitting next to me during the 1st 2 cases. If that isn't a totally insane coincidence then I don't know what it. What I found to be even more humorous was that the person who presented it apparently went to one of the other professors in the human genetics department concerned that she had somehow upset which I found completely absurd since by my logic, if I didn't want to learn about CHARGE I never would've gotten into genetics in the first place and if I was upset by it I wouldn't have immediately volunteered my guess when she queried the audience or stayed behind to talk to her after the class.

OK, I'm done boring you with science nerd talk know

[55]

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I have Meniere's Disease, but it rarely hinders my enjoyment of life.

[DamnYanks2]

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This one is kind of weird, but I'm kind of fascinated with pain, I think because it scares me, and it can be so bad, I try to build a tolerance up for it. I'm talking physical pain, but I doubt I'm as tough as I think I am lol.

To add to this, because I'm not sure I'm making much sense, I burned my hand kinda bad and I just tried to see how much I could take. I did this on accident of course, but after it felt like it was still on fire, I just tried to see how bad I could let the pain get, and how much I could take.

Same thing if I'm wrestling or something, alot of people would already tap out, and I would sit their agonizing, still not tapping out, seeing how much I can take, now I'm not stupid and letting someone break my arm, but I feel like I take it way too far sometimes.