Anyone Ever...

[Feared]

Been at a point in their life where it feels like Life has turned into a Hurricane and is just blasting you with storms, wind, and rain and when you think there might be some sunlight at the end the storms come back even stronger and just knock down everything you're trying to rebuild? That's how this whole entire year has felt for me so far.

I'm at an extremely difficult point in my life currently, basically I've just been slammed with the Injury bug. It started early on this year around winter time when I was hit with a severe Stomach virus which had me vomiting, and in bed for about a week. I lost 10 pounds and felt really weak. About a month later I severely sprained my Wrist working out, which I re-aggravated a few times and was bothering me for the better part of 2 months, which I am now hopefully just starting to heal up. (although it still isn't 100% yet)

And now I get hit with the most serious injury I believe not confirmed yet, but I have a Torn Meniscus which is at least serious enough to cause difficulty in day to day activities. I don't even know how it happened, I might have tweaked it coming down a ladder, or turned it ever so slightly while moving a crate at work. It started out with a mild discomfort in my Left knee when I was crouching, and getting up from crouching. Big deal, I thought I just tweaked something and that was it.. I'll shake it off; and it actually did feel better for a little while after. Fast forward to last Saturday I was limping at work, and had to take an extra rest break just to sit down and rest the knee. I can't really put my full weight on it, and it becomes a bit wobbly, unstable when I do put pressure on it for longer periods of time.

For those who don't know I'm 24 years old and I've wasted the past 7 years of my life goofing off, playing video games, not taking life seriously. This year was my year to change I knew I needed to start taking things more seriously, I was working towards acquiring a car, looking into getting back in School. I had personal fitness goals I took up Bodybuilding last year in hopes of building a stronger, better physique and getting some confidence from feeling strong, and healthy... and yet I keep getting struck with Injuries one by one each one progressively getting worse which is putting all these goals I have on hold.

This was supposed to be a year of self improvement for me, but yet I feel incredibly worthless and helpless now. I know I need to try and keep a positive outlook but it's so hard when everything looks so bleak. It's going to be a long process and I'm going to the Doctor on Thursday. I fear it's going to take multiple visits, Physical check, X-Ray, MRI, I don't even know if I'll need surgery. Tomorrow I need to call my Boss and let him know I'm probably going to be out for a while. I'm fearful that I may lose my job.. because of this. I'm hoping my Bosses will be patient, and understanding with this because I feel like I've been a good reliable employee for them through out the years.

Hey I apologize for the long read, if any of you guys made it this far thank you for your time. I know some of you probably have problems right now that completely dwarf mines in comparison and could make grown men cry by sharing them.. I just needed to let this out, does it get better?

[Gotmadskillzson]

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It gets better.....Some times you have to go through hell to come out on top and really appreciate the small things we so often take for granted. Just stay positive and keep focus on your long term goals.

[DamnYanks2]

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I'm with you Feared, I've been on my own since I was 18 in Florida, and money was getting tight so I moved in with mom and stepdad in Indiana, Christmas of 2011. I did this to save money, ie.. free rent electricity and food. My plan worked, I was back to where I needed to be financially, at the same time I was working out and I was the strongest I had ever been in every facet of life. I was really on top of the world.

My mind was right and I was fiending to get back to Florida. Well, I go back, and you would think this is it , this is my time. I get back and within 3 months, everything goes to hell. I lose my income, I can't find a job, the one I was promised fell through. I flip my freaking truck that I had just put 2 grand in, because some bitch wants to make an illegal left turn, and my truck is gone now. So now I really can't get work, I have nothing to pay for utilities, and I just have enough to pay for one more month of rent.

I'm living without water now, I have nothing to eat, a neighbor knew I was struggling somehow, so he gave me a bag of food. 50 cents looks like heaven right now. I'm jobless, vehicle less, and basically food less, I'm eating once a day.

Oh and I forgot, I got robbed in the middle of all this, 200 dollars, a ps3 and my plasma. Awesome. So I have no water, no money a pantry full of ramen and thats it. I almost went insane. How much can a person take.

Well, after a bunch of failed attempts to stay in Florida because my pride was so high, I eventually returned to Indiana, and now I'm starting all over and I'm pretty pissed about it, How in the hell can that many things go wrong within 3 months. How?

[Feared]

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It gets better.....Some times you have to go through hell to come out on top and really appreciate the small things we so often take for granted. Just stay positive and keep focus on your long term goals.

I hear you, it's just so hard when you can't do the activities you enjoyed and made you feel good about yourself. Working out, (can't work out upper body because wrist is still recovering and can't do lower body because knee is messed up)

and I'm out of work for the time being so my source of income and plans to save up for School, and a Car are at a halt.

I guess all I really can do is just rest, focus on not making the injuries worse, and start making a plan for looking into Schools in my area, and how I can get some financial aid.


Edit: Dang DamYanks, sorry to hear that. I thought I had it bad, if you ever need someone to talk to hit me up in a PM, the one thing I can take comfort in is that someone else is going through similar hardships.

I think we both need to just keep our heads up, and take little baby steps. One step at a time, try to do something positive even if it's as little as filling out some job applications, or cleaning your living area. If my physical condition improves, and I get back into work I really need to give up the "be Superman" mentality and understand sometimes you have to be extra cautious with lifting certain items, going down steps. If something is too heavy I need to get a co-worker to help team lift it, and try to use equipment that's there to transport things. I think my overly macho bravado helped cause my injuries as I thought I could just pick up and move everything.

[DamnYanks2]

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I hear you, it's just so hard when you can't do the activities you enjoyed and made you feel good about yourself. Working out, (can't work out upper body because wrist is still recovering and can't do lower body because knee is messed up)

and I'm out of work for the time being so my source of income and plans to save up for School, and a Car are at a halt.

I guess all I really can do is just rest, focus on not making the injuries worse, and start making a plan for looking into Schools in my area, and how I can get some financial aid.


Edit: Dang DamYanks, sorry to hear that. I thought I had it bad, if you ever need someone to talk to hit me up in a PM, the one thing I can take comfort in is that someone else is going through similar hardships.

I think we both need to just keep our heads up, and take little baby steps. One step at a time, try to do something positive even if it's as little as filling out some job applications, or cleaning your living area. If my physical condition improves, and I get back into work I really need to give up the "be Superman" mentality and understand sometimes you have to be extra cautious with lifting certain items, going down steps. If something is too heavy I need to get a co-worker to help team lift it, and try to use equipment that's there to transport things. I think my overly macho bravado helped cause my injuries as I thought I could just pick up and move everything.

I appreciate that Feared, and I may, because I hate talking to people about my problems face to face. I just feel like my security is gone, that care free living thing is dead for me. I never felt like I lived on a cloud or anything, but I felt like I was doing the right things and I was making a comeback. And then Bam!! That's such a blow to your confidence.

My pride was just at obscene levels which made it worse. I kept telling myself I'll get out of this, I don't need any help, I'll starve before asking someone for food. And I damn near did. I'd go and play basketball or work out lightheaded, just because because I felt like I had to prove myself.

It was awful, I'm such an idiot. I was put though hell, but I added to it with my own pride. I could have had help, but I denied it, unless someone wouldn't take no for an answer, not only that, but when I lost my apartment, I spent a couple days living basically on the street, I would walk around until it was late and fall asleep in a chair in a storage room. I've never told anyone that, and if I told my family or friends that I did that they would be appalled lol.

I hope things work out for you Feared, You went through some real bs too, it sounds like.

[Jr.]

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Feared, I know the feeling when it comes to lack of physical activity. I had shoulder surgery on my right shoulder in 2008 and it still doesn't work properly.. I separated my left shoulder twice snowboarding and that still bothers me from time to time.

Then last April/May I messed up my knee playing basketball. The trainers at the university I worked at think that I tore either my ACL or Meniscus. I was on crutches for 3 weeks (making mound visits on crutches was interesting), but now I'm back to playing golf and working out (not to the extent I was though). It's been fine for about a month and a half now. I can't run on it, but I can jog for a couple of miles without pain and can do most of the workouts I normally do.

I understand the frustration of being injured. My shoulder surgery came the summer before my senior season in college, and I was never the same. It was really tough to deal with and I did slip into a bit of a depression, but I had good friends and my family that I could lean on and talk to. I also saw the school psychologist and that helped me a ton with understanding how this all affected me in ways I never would have understood.

I always suggest speaking to a professional if you have the ability to. I know money is a concern, but some counselors do pro bono work, or will work with your financial situation, so if you're comfortable and think it would help, you may try looking into that.

If there's anything you think I can do to help, don't hesitate to ask also.

[12]

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It gets better.....Some times you have to go through hell to come out on top and really appreciate the small things we so often take for granted. Just stay positive and keep focus on your long term goals.

Truer words have never been spoken.

[cardsfan2222]

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If you injured it at work, you should at least be eligible for workman's comp.

And life really isn't fair sometimes. My wife and I were building our dream home last year, and the builder basically screwed up so the basement would flood anytime it rained. He wouldn't admit he messed up, and we ended up losing $5000 to get out of the contract. After living in her parents basement for 8 months, we were finally able to save up enough to get a new house. It will get better, but it seems like there is always something waiting to get you down.

[wwharton]

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I feel for all of you guys. I think we've all gone through our rough patches, some definitely much worse than others. In some cases, when you are ready to "grow up" things seem bigger than they really are because you actually care more. You feel like you're trying and running in place rather than not trying and just accepting where you are.

In other cases you really do have a ton on your plate and you just have to try to focus on one thing at a time. Trying to take it all in at once is overwhelming.

The most important thing is it will be behind you at some point and you'll be stronger for having gone through it. Gotta remember that.

[jmik58]

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The best thing that's happened to me in my life regarding my growth as a person (by best I don't mean fun) was hitting rock bottom and having my life plans come to an abrupt halt. Instead of filling the void with my own ways again, I leaned more on hope and reexamined my perspective on life. I also found that instead of trying to be in control and on top of everything that it's alright to just let life happen. You've got to surrender to what life brings and be thankful for today.

That doesn't mean you aren't allowed to be sad, angry, upset when things fall apart. It's not about whether you deserve the cards you've been given or not. Let it sting for a while, develop an improved plan and then go at life more efficiently when things clear up -- because they will.

[Feared]

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Little bit of an update but I saw the Doctor today and although I didn't get an MRI on my knee. (just X-rays) He believes it's a Grade 1 MCL Sprain. So apparently he doesn't believe I have meniscus damage... Which I guess is good as Grade 1 is the least severe but I still need to give it 3-4 weeks of taking it easy, and doing some mobility, stretching exercises when the time is right.

Tomorrow I go to my work and try to work out some kind of guidelines for what I can do. Thanks for all the advice guys, just got to take it one step at a time.

[PadresFan]

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That's really good news that it isn't a tear. Thanks for the update and best of luck in your recovery.

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[DamnYanks2]

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Yea, thats good news Feared, hope you have a speedy recovery.

[Feared]

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Going to physical therapy, apparently my knee problem came about because I have poor Thoracic mobility (Mid back, t-spine area) and a weak posterior chain. So my day to day movements would put more stress on my knees. So basically I'm going to spend the next couple of months doing mobility, and strengthening exercises for my mid back and to strengthen my glutes, and hamstrings (which were my weak links causing more strain on the knees).

Man I always thought I had fairly good mobility, atleast compared to the people around me but apparently not. I'm glad I found this issue and can work to correct it, but it's going to take a while; but hopefully in time I'll be able to strengthen my lower body, hips.

[mb625]

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That's really good news that it isn't a tear. Thanks for the update and best of luck in your recovery.

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VERY good news. My brother recently tore his PCL. It's going to be a while before he can do anything athletic again.