[Bullit]

Had really bad anxiety last night, was actually terrified to go to sleep. Feeling a bit better today. I am just trying to relax a bit.

But then our next door neighbor has somebody cutting trees down in our yard, which is actually 2 feet of her yard. No knock on the door, no hey mind if we do this now, nothing. Then is yelling at my wife and I for being rude and bad neighbors. I would also like to point out this lady has not come over to our house since my daughter passed away. No condolences or anything, never in checked in, but WE are the bad neighbors???

So this has not helped at all today. I just really cannot understand the behavior of some people.

On top of that all of my wife's kids are up today. While I love them very much it just making more obvious that my daughter is not here and it really makes me sad. But I know my wife needs to see her kids to, especially now. So I am just trying to get through. Some times my heart just start racing and the anxiety sets in.