Sorry to hear man cancer really sucks. My ant is going throw cancer for a second time after not having it for like 14 years. I still enjoy Christmas a lot has it is my favorite holiday but not has much has I used to because I have trouble with depression. The depression comes form being 25 and having trouble finding a new job has I hate and am burned out on my job and felling like I am never going to beable to afforded to movie out on my own. Been trying to find a new job for like 2 years but all I hear is come back later we are not higher, maybe in a month ect. Also being 25 and I have never had a gf or went out on a date and I am social awkward. Because of all of those things I just fell stuck in life and like nothing is going to change. So I don't want another year to be over has it is like just another year of my life with my life not progressing at all.