Just want to say thanks

[bjf1377]

I know that it's realistically just easier to think of people online as just different colored names next to their posts, but I can't thank this board and the people on it enough.

Over the past four or five months, I slowly slipped into a pretty deep depression. It wasn't "clinically diagnosed" or anything, but I've read plenty about the symptoms of male depression to know full well that I have/had it. Well from some time in October until very recently, it was very hard for me to go more than a few days without thinking about harming myself, whether it just be something minor to re-focus the pain or going all the way and just ending it.

Honestly, I didn't handle it as well as I could have. I know when that stuff is happening, you need to talk to people and I didn't. Instead I looked for stuff to take my mind off of everything. And the forums here at OperationSports was one of those things. One of the first things I do every day, regardless of how crappy the day has been, is to come on here to see what is up with the sports & videogame worlds and with the people here. It wasn't the main #1 reason that I didn't off myself (far from it, believe me), but I know for a fact that it was at least one little part. And in situations like that, every little bit of help can go a long way.

All in all, I just want to thank all the posters here who have made these the forums that they are. OS provides me and I'm sure others with a place to get away from some of the negativity in their lives, even for just a few minutes or hours a day.

Thanks,
BJ

[TheMatrix31]

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We're glad we can be here for you man, OS is a part of us all.

Keep it going!

[ex carrabba fan]

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Glad you stuck it out and hung in there. "Ending it" is NEVER a good thing, it hurts so many people. Obviously I don't know what you've gone through but just know that one complete stranger out in Long Beach is happy tonight knowing that you are still here.

P.S. Dance with the Devil, great song (if you were referring to the song?).

[The GIGGAS]

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I'm glad you're still with us. Depression is a horrible thing, and I hope you can overcome it somehow, man.

[elicoleman]

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You're one of the better posters we have on this site IMO.

You really helped me out personally with the scoring in the fantasy college football league. I mean, such a tremendous help.

And it's amazing, it seemed like everytime I talked to you, you were always helping someone else and their problems. Even though you were going through all this, you managed to put others first. That's quite impressive, my friend.

Anyways, I hope it gets better. If you need a friend to talk to, you always have my AIM.

[Blzer]

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No problem.

[dieselboy]

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Glad to hear you are doing better.

[Spectre]

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Good to hear bro, if you ever want to talk about it, send a PM

[dave360]

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Just keep in mind man that there's absolutely nothing wrong with taking an anti-depressant to help with it and it doesn't make you less of a man. I was in the same shape you were in for a while with anxiety problems and it almost drove me crazy, but I found a great medication and I've had no anxiety attacks for almost a year.

[bjf1377]

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Thanks guys. As for the anti-depressants, I dunno, I've read about some negative side affects, so I've always been wary of those. But I may look into it.

P.S. Dance with the Devil, great song (if you were referring to the song?).

That I am. Great song and I never get tired of it. It actually helps to listen to it a lot.

[PlayaHataSupreme]

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Thanks guys. As for the anti-depressants, I dunno, I've read about some negative side affects, so I've always been wary of those. But I may look into it.


That I am. Great song and I never get tired of it. It actually helps to listen to it a lot.

Maybe it was just me, but I found myself becoming overaggressive and I did more stupid ish the more I took those things....... I made a lot of people upset when I was on those things and I was real desperate for some reason........

Of course, anti-depressants may act differently in different people, but I'm sure I'm not the only one that they put a negative effect on.

[WTF]

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Glad you're still with us bj... like some of the other fellas have said, if you need to talk, or chat, or whatever man, hit me up. We've all been through similar things on here. This is one of the best places, as we have such a diverse population, but in the end, it's a lot of good guys from different backgrounds.

Glad you were able to overcome brother...

Will

[Lintyfresh85]

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Just keep in mind man that there's absolutely nothing wrong with taking an anti-depressant to help with it and it doesn't make you less of a man. I was in the same shape you were in for a while with anxiety problems and it almost drove me crazy, but I found a great medication and I've had no anxiety attacks for almost a year.

Same way... I had so many girl problems my sophomore year of college that it drove me into a deep depression. Went to a doctor, and from then on, with the help of one medication I've been fine ever since! I hope everything works out for you bj1337... we're all here for you!

[Beantown]

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Glad to hear you're keeping your head up, man. As others have said, if you ever need someone to talk to just hit me up. I've know people who have, and have been through, many of the same thought-processes and moods I'm sure you've been in, amd talking to people really does help.

Keep your head up, Bj. Things won't stay bad forever.

[bjf1377]

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One step forward, two steps back. I had like 8 or 9 good days after posting this thread, then it went downhill. My best friend who I could always turn to for help turned her back on me again and hasn't talked to me since the 13th. I have no idea what I even did to bring this on, but whatever it is she is unhappy with me.

So, I just fell back into my crap for a little bit. It has been a little off & on this past week & half. I had a few ok days, a few bad days, and then I had a strech of like 4 good days. Tonight was another issue. It just all built up today and I just slipped back into that zone, and frankly I get more scared each time I go into that zone because I know what's going on but I can't stop it. But I went to a counseling session last week and I have another one this week, so I am working on this slowly but surely. I know its gonna take a month or two to see results, but I just have to stick with it and set things to look forward to (ie Breaking Benjamin concert on Feb. 9th)