Stuck between a rock and a hard place. I cut her mother off (and she doesn't, which I can't realistically ask her to do), I look like an ***. I don't, and we keep going in circles. I know my fiancé won't... The relationship isn't the same being as we're on our own, but am I gonna duck her at our wedding? What about our future children? I'm gonna have to end up swallowing my pride... well, it's not even pride. Me and my fiancé are trying to make a life for us, it's hard enough out here without adding some made-up drama to the mix. I'm just sick of them barging into our lives and adding stress to our lives.
Of course I got a "I STILL LOVE YOU GUYS" text this evening. Like I said, forgive and forget, again and again and again. At some point you have to put your foot down, say you need help and REAL change, and evaluate down the line. I haven't talked to one of my brothers in almost 2 years now. He crossed the line one too many times. It's tough, I think about him a lot. But I can't reopen communication, not yet. At some point you have to say enough is enough! I'm sick of people doing whatever they want, offering up some half-assed "sorry" and we go about it like they haven't wronged us while we just let it happen.
No one wants to be a doormat, no one wants to play the fool, but no one wants to make the tough decisions, either. I'm saying it right here and right now, I'm gonna have the courage to put my foot down and keep it there. I don't want to see, hear, or smell this woman for an indefinite time. Down the line, I'm absolutely open to communication. In the meantime, stay out of, at least, MY life. She's gonna suck those around me into it again, but it ain't gonna be me. I will be civil if we cross paths, but I will also stand my ground if confronted about it. I know I'll be made to be the bad guy; talk never hurt me. I'll take that hit if that means you stay away from me.
Ugh!
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