Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

[Chrisksaint]

I kind of have a resentment to my father for moving to Florida when I was so young (even though now see why he and my mom just couldnt work out). Living in New York I more or less had to grow up without one. We talk here and there and If I wanted to go see him in Florida he would buy me a ticket and fly me out, like he wants to be around me as much as possible. But the fact that Id have to fly out 3 hours just to see my dad pisses me off. I just want to drive up the block and talk to him at any moment if I need to. Its like he left so he can build his dream family with his wife and my little bro and sis and I had no part in that dream. I put on a fake smile when I go visit them sometimes but it gets to me when I think about the whole thing. But he is a good dad to them, which Im kind of jealous of. Makes me want to be the best dad I can when that time comes.

Exact same thing, except I did have a step dad for most of my life which was great but I never had a good relationship with my real dad. I haven't seen him in 2 years, he'll call about once every few months.

It's funny cause I put on the fake appearances and all the same way you do during visits, but I feel he does the same in general. I question at times if he truly cares and the $$ he gives me a month, etc. are just to give off the appearance he cares. He treats his kids much better, then mine it seems. Which is funny as whenever I get asked if I have siblings I always just say my little sister and forget his kids.

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[LoSoisNiCEx414]

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My dad has 2 baby mommas that are sisters & so much younger than he is. Hes like 47 & 1 of the sisters is like 20 & the other like 25.... The crazy thing is I used to go out with thr younger sistet when I was like 13 (im now 21) & my older brother went out with ther older sister for a few years. The older sister would often smoke pot with my dad (while with my brother) a lot, & eventually he developed feels for her like a wk after my brother broke up with her, & seemed to want her around still & continued doing stuff for her, well eventually thet hooked up & my mom divorced him (i was 16 at the time) then a few years later my dad gets with the younger sister & has another child so yheir kids are brother & sister & cousins at the same time.

I hardly ever talk to my dad, but when I do visit with my brothers I often just look at them & smh. Crazy to me... But the sad part is I may never really have a relationship with my little bro & sister because of how wierd I think my dads situation is... My mom & dad together had 4 boys who are all grown & very close. & my father had another son he made while married to my mom that is grown as well that I love the same as my other bros, but I probably wont have the same connection with these 2 nee kids

[LowerWolf]

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Not really deep nor dark, but when I was a kid I used to create my own little dynasty leagues in my head. I'd "sim" games in my head and write down the stats and standings in notebooks. I created my own trades and everything. I'd do it every year for MLB and NFL.

This was back in the Atari 2600/NES days, so the idea of having a videogame do this was outrageous. But there's a reason I'm a big fan of dynasty modes now.

[TripleCrown9]

Re: Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

When me and my ex-fiancée broke up two years ago, I strongly considered suicide.

[TheMatrix31]

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Fiancee? Why did I think you were in your late teens?

Hm.

[TripleCrown9]

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Fiancee? Why did I think you were in your late teens?

Hm.

Why does everyone think that? Lol I'm 22. When we were together I was 20.

[Reyes19]

Why does everyone think that? Lol I'm 22. When we were together I was 20.

Engaged too young.

[TheMatrix31]

Re: Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

It's certainly fine to get engaged early if you know and if you have the financial means to do so. Not up to anyone else but them if they saw fit at the time.

That said, I dunno why I thought you were younger lol

[TripleCrown9]

Re: Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

Engaged too young.

It's not like I'm 17 and have 3 kids, like some people I went to school with.

[LoSoisNiCEx414]

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Im engaged now, im 21

[TripleCrown9]

Re: Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

It's certainly fine to get engaged early if you know and if you have the financial means to do so. Not up to anyone else but them if they saw fit at the time.

That said, I dunno why I thought you were younger lol

I have no idea. You did, Husker thought I was 17 or 18. I guess I give off that vibe.

And we were certainly ready, finances would have been tight, but we were completely sure. Eventually I guess we got tired of spending so much time together and we both snapped.

[Chaos81]

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I knew you were in your early 20s for whatever that's worth.

[Gotmadskillzson]

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My dad has 2 baby mommas that are sisters & so much younger than he is. Hes like 47 & 1 of the sisters is like 20 & the other like 25.... The crazy thing is I used to go out with thr younger sistet when I was like 13 (im now 21) & my older brother went out with ther older sister for a few years. The older sister would often smoke pot with my dad (while with my brother) a lot, & eventually he developed feels for her like a wk after my brother broke up with her, & seemed to want her around still & continued doing stuff for her, well eventually thet hooked up & my mom divorced him (i was 16 at the time) then a few years later my dad gets with the younger sister & has another child so yheir kids are brother & sister & cousins at the same time.

I hardly ever talk to my dad, but when I do visit with my brothers I often just look at them & smh. Crazy to me... But the sad part is I may never really have a relationship with my little bro & sister because of how wierd I think my dads situation is... My mom & dad together had 4 boys who are all grown & very close. & my father had another son he made while married to my mom that is grown as well that I love the same as my other bros, but I probably wont have the same connection with these 2 nee kids

When I read this, I immediately thought of this:

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Re: Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

Not really deep nor dark, but when I was a kid I used to create my own little dynasty leagues in my head. I'd "sim" games in my head and write down the stats and standings in notebooks. I created my own trades and everything. I'd do it every year for MLB and NFL.

This was back in the Atari 2600/NES days, so the idea of having a videogame do this was outrageous. But there's a reason I'm a big fan of dynasty modes now.

Oh yeah, reminds me of one of mine. I still, to this day, create leagues, teams, etc. and "play" the games in the following manner:

-Each team has a certain offense or style that they run (in the case of baseball, this is waived)
-Each team has a ranking (determined by a card draw) in four different categories (Football: Rushing O/D and Passing O/D; Basketball: Perimeter O/D, Inside O/D; Baseball: Contact, Power, Pitching, Fielding) and depending on their ranking teams will get a certain amount of points/runs added to their score (Say a team gets a king in Rushing and Passing O, they get 17 points added to their offensive score, unless the other team has a good D and has face cards in both rushing and passing D, then they cancel) and the offense/style they play determines what unit is most important (Rushing/Passing, for example.)
-Then games are played by drawing cards and adding the total on the cards to the advantage (or disadvantage as the case may be) to determine a winner.

[TDenverFan]

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I've often wondered if my parents think I'm gay since I've literally never been with a girl or hinted at the desire to do such. I'm just terrified to be more than friends with girls, even though I know there have been a few interested. One girl even asked me to homecoming, but my family was visiting relatives then so I had to decline, which wound up being the easy way out. It probably would have been good for me to go, but IDK what I would have done otherwise.

Maybe this is just normal teenage boy stuff, but outside of this I'm pretty confident (Borderline Cocky, though I know my limits) and oddly enough I'm also pretty flirty, though mostly in a joking way.

I guess this isn't very deep or dark, but I'm very much a rule follower since I know my parents will pay for a decent portion of my college as long as I don't get in major trouble.