Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

[jack1535]

Was her name Malibu?

Please say Malibu

Nah she was only an alternate she never made it to TV although she no everyone who was actually on the show

[PVarck31]

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I'm trying not to look at your names as I read this thread....haha I kid. I def don't judge. It Takes some guts to come out with this kind of stuff.

I never did plan to reveal this on here, but now, I do feel that ability to share stuff like this with completes strangers. OS is an amazing place. Anyway...

I have Bipolar disorder. I am on meds and take them everyday, but every day is a struggle. If it wasn't for my wife I'm not sure where I would be. She helps me sooo much. Before I met here I exhibited classic symptoms. I was extremely promiscuous. I banged every girl that had 2 legs and I spent every penny on material things, videogames, clothes, you name it. I wouldn't pay bills then beg family for money to pay the. These are all classic bipolar symptoms.

I still have a lot of mood issues. I can go from happy to sad in seconds, (rapid cycling) I have gone weeks and month being depressed. I have gone days, and maybe a week of being manic.

I also have a ton of phobias. And I mean a ton.

Unfortunately these issues keep me from living a "normal" life. I spend most of my time at home. If I go out I usually don't travel any further than a mile or two.

I hope no one thinks I'm too messed up. I really am a normal guy with some issues.

I consider myself to be very educated and it hurts that I "can't" actually work right now because of my illness.

Well, there it is.

[killerx2]

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i was attacked by dogs a couple times when i was young so i became scared of them.over the years i'm down to only the big dogs because they can bite.i think i can slowly get over it though.i was about 5 and 6 when the 2 attacks happened.i also dont like dogs licking my face.any dog i've come to trust, like one of my friends dogs i still like to avoid him simply because of the licking.it just annoys me.

[bigfnjoe96]

This isn't a secret as I am open about it with my family & friends & at work

I am HIV+. I have been living with the virus for almost 17 years. Was diagnosed in July 1996

I have been waiting for the right time to share this with the OS Community & this thread & some of the stuff I've read compelled me to open up.

Infected thru unprotected sex I'm also recovering from drug addiction. Just celebrated 17 years clean.

Had a rough childhood. Made some tough choices. Today I realize that I didn't have to choose the path I chose. But it happen & it's a learning experience I share with the Young people I work with everyday.

I have been so blessed the last 17 years with my health, a beautiful wife who is not HIV+ & a great family of stepchildren & grandchildren.

OS for the last 10 years has been an important part of life. It has made me laugh, and it has also made me cry. It has help me realize to live life to the fullest.

I love playing video games, which is what drew me to OS. Video games help me both Mentally & Spiritually. They help me relive the childhood I really didn't have

Steve, if you read this, thanks for providing a place where we can come together and not only talk about Video Games but also talk about life..

To my OS Family thank you also, for being some AWESOME individuals. You guys rock......

Sent from my Galaxy Nexus using Tapatalk 2

[Chrisksaint]

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I see some of these stories and think damn I've been using Burger King and the few times I've gone to church the wrong way.

[Bmore Irish]

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well since other ppl have been sharing, I'll go ahead. I'll start light, and get darker.

I got it on in a bathroom at college this past summer. left my seed all over the floor lol.

my first night at college, 3 1/2 years ago, i went out with some ppl to a party. got smashed, got in argument with then-gf and left party. got lost, ended up sittin on a curb and the cops showed up and started talkin to me. i wouldn't cooperate and i tried tellin them i didnt speak english and was talkin to them in some gibberish with a poorly faked accent that i claimed was spanish lol. they laughed at me and made me go to the hospital. turns out my BAC was .30, and i was forced to take an alcohol class by the school.

drinking and driving is terrible, but sadly i used to do it far too often. a number of ppl i went to school with have died from drunk driving accidents. i've narrowly avoided 3 DUIs. one of them i was speeding pretty fast and a state trooper pulled me over. passed sobriety test, and he asked if i took any medicine, i did for depression and im pretty sure that's why he let me go. i was also high and had marijuana on me. lucky break.

on halloween weekend last year i dressed up as captain morgan and took a bottle of captain with me to the football game at college. the costume was a hit, and it's how i got the bottle into the game lol. downed that whole bottle within several hours, ended up at party where i drank more and ended up walking home (glad i didn't drive) after i almost got in a fight with a group of ppl. woke up the next morning and couldn't find my car. i reported it stolen. im such a drunk idiot, it was at the party the whole time but i believed in my heart of hearts that i drove it somewhere. im such an idiot. cops found it like a month later, no trouble from that one either.

another time, on cinco de mayo, i was drunk and i drove off the road into a ditch while looking at my ipod. blew out my tires and my windows and the air bag went off. smashed my phone after i couldn't explain to my ex where i was cuz i was too drunk. so i left my car and walked to the college i attend, which took me several hours. ended up sitting by a curb till ppl started going to class early in the morn and someone recognized me and called my gf. 3 cop cars rolled up lights flashing but i left with gf's mom. there was alcohol in my trunk but they couldn't charge me with anything for some reason, i guess cuz i left scene out of necessity and they couldn't prove i was drunk.

i helped commit a class 5 or 6 felony theft once. never caught.

suffered from depression for a couple years not that long ago. was medicated, and eventually got myself off the meds once i felt better, though the withdrawals sucked. probably have a mood disorder.

im in a much better place in my life now, thankfully. im very thankful for the girl im with now, she's such a wonderful person and was a big part of helping me get my life off the path it was headed down.

sorry for such a long post, just felt compelled to share. believe it or not, i actually have more stories.

[z Revis]

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*This is going to sound absolutely ridiculous, but whatever. I haven't told anyone this ever and for good reason. The first time I jacked off was in I think 6th grade(I was like 11 or 12). And I did it...... in class. Well, how I did it is the best part. I don't want to get into a whole lot of details, but I did it by rubbing an open reading book against me(over my pants). I remember my teacher frequently looking at me throughout, but me being naive and not realizing that she most likely 100% knows what I'm doing, I didn't think it was a big deal. Ya know.. "Teacher I'm just bored so I'm tapping my book against my leg" is probably what I was thinking of saying if she asked.

That's not it, though. The funny thing is, I was so naive at that age I thought I had discovered masturbation. Like.. I invented it or something. I kept wondering if anyone else in the world knows about this "trick" that makes you feel so wonderful. Ugh. I look back and feel so ****ing disgusted/embarrassed. Can't believe my teacher was able to stand there with a straight face and continue teaching class.

K now that we got that out of the way..

*I once stole $250 from my dad. He had just sold his motorcycle so he had thousands in cash in his room. Well at the time my parents were separated and my dad had literally just broken up with his gf. So.. he blamed that girl for the missing cash. He never even questioned me about it and I still haven't told him.

*This one isn't too bad, just ridiculous/funny. In HS I had an extreme Halo 2 addiction. I skipped school more than a few times because of it. Well, one day I actually came to school then said screw it and walked 3-4 miles home.... in pouring rain. All for a video game.

[ImTellinTim]

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Well, zRevis is the leader in the clubhouse of masturbation stories.

[Watson]

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I see some of these stories and think damn I've been using Burger King and the few times I've gone to church the wrong way.

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Just to clarify.



One more...and man, this isn't as much a bad story for me as it is the other guy.

I was at party my sophomore (I'm pretty sure, may have been my freshman year) and I was hammered. Anyway there was this guy I was cool with but wasn't on any basis close friends or even bros with. Anyway, as the party goes on I notice he's getting more and more, idk, creepy? Like following me around and everything. Well when I got past the point of hammered he said we should go up to the poolhouse.

I don't care what planet you're on, when a guy of the same sex says to a straight guy they should go to a private room, your *** comes back down to planet Earth. I was shocked man, shocked, stumbling for words. Luckily people were starting to leave and I took that as my excuse to get the hell out of dodge. I kinda felt bad because I'm like 90 percent sure that's the first time he ever hit on a guy at a party.

About a week later he caught up to me as I was going to football practice and apologized. He didn't come out of the closet until pretty much a full year later and he didn't want me telling his secret. Which I understood fully.


We spoke like two times throughout HS after that.

[Segagendude]

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I once got so drunk I blacked out. (Circa 1995)

To this day, I've no idea how I made it back to my base (driving) without killing anyone. I watched the news the next day nervous as hell that they'd report a hit and run or something...

Haunts me to this day, and needless to say I never drove drunk again.

[Fly3]

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This isn't a secret as I am open about it with my family & friends & at work

I am HIV+. I have been living with the virus for almost 17 years. Was diagnosed in July 1996

I have been waiting for the right time to share this with the OS Community & this thread & some of the stuff I've read compelled me to open up.

Infected thru unprotected sex I'm also recovering from drug addiction. Just celebrated 17 years clean.

Had a rough childhood. Made some tough choices. Today I realize that I didn't have to choose the path I chose. But it happen & it's a learning experience I share with the Young people I work with everyday.

I have been so blessed the last 17 years with my health, a beautiful wife who is not HIV+ & a great family of stepchildren & grandchildren.

OS for the last 10 years has been an important part of life. It has made me laugh, and it has also made me cry. It has help me realize to live life to the fullest.

I love playing video games, which is what drew me to OS. Video games help me both Mentally & Spiritually. They help me relive the childhood I really didn't have

Steve, if you read this, thanks for providing a place where we can come together and not only talk about Video Games but also talk about life..

To my OS Family thank you also, for being some AWESOME individuals. You guys rock......

Sent from my Galaxy Nexus using Tapatalk 2

http://hiphopwired.com/2013/03/15/researchers-in-france-say-14-adults-cured-of-hiv/

[baumy300]

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the cops showed up and started talkin to me. i wouldn't cooperate and i tried tellin them i didnt speak english and was talkin to them in some gibberish with a poorly faked accent that i claimed was spanish

i was also high and had marijuana on me.

on halloween weekend last year i dressed up as captain morgan and took a bottle of captain with me to the football game at college. the costume was a hit, and it's how i got the bottle into the game lol. downed that whole bottle within several hours

another time, on cinco de mayo, i was drunk

Look, I don't want to come off as creepy, but.... You ever wanna come and party with me man?

[Chrisksaint]

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Yeah blacking out is the worst, too many times have I done that at a club or party and have woken up on my couch, bed, bed with someone else, a friends floor,etc. and have no clue as to what happened.

[baumy300]

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Yeah blacking out is the worst, too many times have I done that at a club or party and have woken up on my couch, bed, bed with someone else, a friends floor,etc. and have no clue as to what happened.

Well on the bright side, I'm sure the clubs and your friends don't mind cleaning up the 2 little beer cans you left after you passed out

[Chrisksaint]

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Well on the bright side, I'm sure the clubs and your friends don't mind cleaning up the 2 little beer cans you left after you passed out