I know I know, I feel sappy for putting this out for the world to see but Im in a bit of disarray right now and could use some help from the everyday guy such as myself. If its of any importance, Im 18 years old, soon to be 19 and I know everyone out there will groan and tell me there's always another train coming but here me out.
First I'll provide a little bit of backstory...
Since 9th grade, me and this girl have been really good friends. We had always talked, hung out, did fun stuff together, blah blah. So near the end of our junior year of high school, we decided to start dating. Well, it didnt start out as dating, we made out in the library at first just to fool around then it kicked off from there.
So we ended up going 16 months strong, from April 2009, to August 2010. I had never had a girlfriend up to this point before, let alone even taken a girl very seriously. But this relationship was as genuine as it could get and we really fell for one another. I had never had more fun in those months than I had in my entire life. We had our down moments but most of the time gotten over them very quickly and continued building upon what we had established. Legitly, I can say I'm in love with the girl, and I can say that without any doubt in my mind. The one "catch" I guess you could say is that we never had sex. As close as you could get, but no sex. Ill leave it at that.
Well this May we graduated and spent our last summer together before we went off to different colleges. I attend UNC Chapel Hill currently and she goes to Western Carolina, which is about 200 miles away or so(about 4-5 hours). We mutually decided to break up because we both figured it would be better to not worry about what the other is doing while at college. We would remain friends and talk to one another about things if need be.
Well, I gotta say letting go has gone hard for me. We've been apart for a month now, but I still feel this emptiness inside me. Dont get me wrong, I love college and Im having a blast hanging out with new people and being a part of something this special. But I just feel like something is missing. Ive been around this girl for 4 years or so straight and I just cant move on, as much I keep telling myself to do so. I admit I facebook creep her page just to see how shes doing and I know I need to stop doing it but I just cant.
Im glad I got that off my chest, as weird as it is to post something like this on a website called Operation Sports for Christ's sake. Any input would be appreciated.
First I'll provide a little bit of backstory...
Since 9th grade, me and this girl have been really good friends. We had always talked, hung out, did fun stuff together, blah blah. So near the end of our junior year of high school, we decided to start dating. Well, it didnt start out as dating, we made out in the library at first just to fool around then it kicked off from there.
So we ended up going 16 months strong, from April 2009, to August 2010. I had never had a girlfriend up to this point before, let alone even taken a girl very seriously. But this relationship was as genuine as it could get and we really fell for one another. I had never had more fun in those months than I had in my entire life. We had our down moments but most of the time gotten over them very quickly and continued building upon what we had established. Legitly, I can say I'm in love with the girl, and I can say that without any doubt in my mind. The one "catch" I guess you could say is that we never had sex. As close as you could get, but no sex. Ill leave it at that.
Well this May we graduated and spent our last summer together before we went off to different colleges. I attend UNC Chapel Hill currently and she goes to Western Carolina, which is about 200 miles away or so(about 4-5 hours). We mutually decided to break up because we both figured it would be better to not worry about what the other is doing while at college. We would remain friends and talk to one another about things if need be.
Well, I gotta say letting go has gone hard for me. We've been apart for a month now, but I still feel this emptiness inside me. Dont get me wrong, I love college and Im having a blast hanging out with new people and being a part of something this special. But I just feel like something is missing. Ive been around this girl for 4 years or so straight and I just cant move on, as much I keep telling myself to do so. I admit I facebook creep her page just to see how shes doing and I know I need to stop doing it but I just cant.
Im glad I got that off my chest, as weird as it is to post something like this on a website called Operation Sports for Christ's sake. Any input would be appreciated.
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