Been with the company for five years. I've made a hard decision to leave at the end of this year. Some of you may know that I've decided to go back to school to become a teacher. I hope to start in the Fall of 2013. But in the meantime, I want to take odd jobs and gigs with film, television or commercials shoots.
It's just tough to know I'm going to sit down with this guy sometime beginning of December and tell him I'm leaving. In five years, I can say I've developed a pretty good friendship with my boss. He's two years older than me so we normally have many of the same things to discuss. Makes work life a little easier. Unfortunately, the things I'm doing at the job, I feel I have outgrown and I believe the position has outgrown me. The things he wants to promote me into are things I have zero interest in doing. It just doesn't make sense to continue...and there's the whole school/being a teacher thing too.
The tough balance is I'm counted on for a lot. I've warned my boss many times he shouldn't count on just me to both know and do the things I do. Many people feel they are important to their company. I AM important to my company. Seriously. Things screech to a grinding halt if I'm out of the country or in jury duty (examples of places I've been in when the calls and emails never end because no one knows how to move forward).
I've told him: What if something happened to me? I fly a lot for work. You just never know. I've told him: We need interns, people under me, doing the things I do, learning from me, just in case. 3 years since those discussions started. 3 years and nothing has happened.
And I know the day I walk out, he's gonna be lost. Sure, he can find someone to replace me, but the amount of training will take a lot of time. And there's his business suddenly slowing down (because it's ballooning fast) and as a friend of his, it sucks to know I could be doing that to him.
The other part of me says: It's not my problem. I gotta take care of me. I'm not doing anything I thought I'd be doing when I first joined the company. Anything film/video related has been pushed outside to the garbage because the boss has deemed it "not worth the time and effort." Yet, that's why I'm here. So my job has become doing things I'm overqualified to do, under paid to do, and promoted to do what I have no desire to do.
Anyway, that's just some explanation on why I'm leaving. Curious to read how others got through that conversation. I fully expect a lot of push back. But it's not up for discussion. I've made up my mind. Just kinda dreading that moment. Feel like I'm breaking up with that nice girl that I don't like anymore.

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