My deepest condolences man. Unfortunately I know how you feel, as I lost my dad unexpectantly back in high school (about 12 year ago). I'm not going to lie, it's going to hurt for a long, long time. But that's okay...it shows how much you cared for him and how important he was to you. It's those feelings that help you get through it in the end, because you will realize the impact he had not just on you, but on those around you. Soon you'll realize what a great life he lived and that will also help.
I'll never forget what a family friend told us when my dad passed away: "Losing a parent is like getting an amputation; you get used to the reality, but you never stopped wishing it never happened." As the years have passed I've realized how true it is. I still see him in my dreams, think about him daily, and wish I could see him one more time, if for no other reason than to say my goodbyes, but for the life of me I can't imagine what life would be like if he was still here.
Stay strong and don't let yourself forget the great times you shared together. You've probably already started telling stories with your family that bring a smile to your face. Believe it or not, there will come a time (and it will be soon) that the mention of your dad won't bring a tear to your eye, but a smile to your face. I pray that you get there sooner rather than later.
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