My Unpredictability: I'm 20 year's old and I still haven't figured myself out. I'm a procrastinator and lazy, and it seems like I can't help it, it's just strange, I hit points in my life where I'm just like **** everything, I'm just gonna put off the bills, I don't really wanna go out today, I'll eat later, I think I'll just play the Show all day. Then other day's I feel like I'm gonna die of boredom if I don't get out of the house and play ball and work out and holler at some girls and just be productive. But I'm just so damn unpredictable.
I'll get really motivated if I want something. When I'm angry and motivated I can do anything, it's really strange everything just becomes easier for me when I'm at the top of my motivation. I work out like I feel nothing, I push myself like crazy, I care about everything, I want to be the best at everything, I have all the confidence in the world, Flirting with girl's becomes so simple. Everything is right at my fingertips when I'm motivated and then I become satisfied, It becomes too easy, and I just let down, I lose my motivation, I showed everyone what I can do, now I'm satisfied, I wish I was never satisfied with myself and I always had that hunger, but I always let it fade, then I'll just go back to being unproductive.
Best way to describe me: I'm still figuring things out, I have all the potential and talent in the world, but a family tragedy and just "Me" in general is preventing me from elevating myself to new height's. Which is sad...
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