Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

[Chaos81]

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I'm just terrified to be more than friends with girls

Terrified of what?

[BDKiiing]

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Captain Save-a-hoe complex in my 18 year old self at the time. Felt like she deserved better, but not necessarily me, and wasn't sure if we'd work either. Logically I didn't think we could work, though part of me still wanted to give it a shot. I never had a relationship that close with a girl prior to her then either.

Glad we didn't date cuz it wouldn't have ended well, but I got some nice consolation pictures in the end.

Pictures or it didn't happen.

[BDKiiing]

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Well I guess I can go. When I was in 8th grade my cousin who was 2 years in school, 1 year in age older than me died in a car accident, drove into the river just out side of my hometown and was missing for 10 days, really hit my family hard. For two years I held in all my emotions and eventually led to me just letting loose the summer between my sophomore and junior years of high school. It led to substance abuse and suicide attempts, which led to being incredibly depressed. I battled that for just short of two years or so. Eventually found God and got a tattoo and used that as my own therapy. Now it's been almost 7 years since he died, and have been clean of drugs for around 3 years and haven't felt better.

[slickdtc]

Why does everyone think that? Lol I'm 22. When we were together I was 20.

For some reason I get you and Champion mixed up. I don't even think there's a reason. Weren't you banned under a different name before being reinstated? That could be it.

[TripleCrown9]

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For some reason I get you and Champion mixed up. I don't even think there's a reason. Weren't you banned under a different name before being reinstated? That could be it.

I was banned at one point, but it was with this username.

[PVarck31]

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My Uncle and his family are kinda estranged from us. It sucks because I used to be so close to him.

But anyway, a few months ago his oldest son/my cousin was doing something with a handgun (not sure exactly what, probably not something he should have been doing) and it went off and shot him in the head.

I haven't seen him in years, and my family seemed like they were sad a bit, but everyone just seemed to sweep it under the rug. I was never close with him, but It really upset me. I didn't let anyone know how much, but I couldn't get it out of my head for at least a week. I still get sick just thinking about it.

I grew up around guns. (dad is a retired cop) and I knew at a young age how dangerous they can be. I learned how to properly handle a handgun when I was like 12. So I don't know. I just wish he would have not made one of those split second mistakes that ends your life.

[Champion8877]

I watch Gilmore Girls and enjoy it....a lot. It's actually one of my favorite shows, I've probably seen every episode 3-4 times each at least

[WazzuRC]

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Wazzu, I stutter as well, but I don't think it's as bad.

If I'm presenting a speech or talking in front of a group, I don't have an issue with it. It gets bad when I'm talking to just one person or try to make an interjection. But I don't stutter when I'm on a date with a girl (usually) or in an interview. But in a car with a friend or talking to my parents? It's bad

I've developed this thing where I'd say a generic phrase such as "it's like" or "you mean like" and fake like I'm thinking about it and give an unvocalized pause so I can sort out the words.

That's pretty unique since it's usually the opposite. Most people with any type of speech impediment are more comfortable around family and friends than strangers or groups of people so they stutter less. I stutter way less at home with the wife than I do at work with my boss or around groups. A huge thing for me is speech anxiety where I clam up and then the stuttering gets worse in pressure situations.

[Segagendude]

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I'm down wit O.P.P.

[RoyalBoyle78]

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I had tough childhood, My father was a Heroin addict most of my life, I lived with my mother who was single mom with my brother when I was younger, as my of 3 sisters had already moved out, my mother was on welfare and busted her Arse as a waitress and also to raise me and my brother, hes 3 years older then me. We were bad kids and had to live in bad places and deal with bad people. Whoever says the streets don't teach you things your wrong. I have learned a lot.


Today, My father is Alive and has 22 years clean of all drugs and him and my mother have been back together for the last 10 years. after being separated over over 18 years.

I myself had battled drug issues too, I don't wanna go into that much detail, but now I'm clean proud of all the things I have today because I work hard and have two beautiful children..(with two different women..LOL), had to deal some sick women along the way too, but I'm a survivor and will continue to be, and also be a great dad.

I know its deep , but you asked.

[wwharton]

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I had tough childhood, My father was a Heroin addict most of my life, I lived with my mother who was single mom with my brother when I was younger, as my of 3 sisters had already moved out, my mother was on welfare and busted her Arse as a waitress and also to raise me and my brother, hes 3 years older then me. We were bad kids and had to live in bad places and deal with bad people. Whoever says the streets don't teach you things your wrong. I have learned a lot.


Today, My father is Alive and has 22 years clean of all drugs and him and my mother have been back together for the last 10 years. after being separated over over 18 years.

I myself had battled drug issues too, I don't wanna go into that much detail, but now I'm clean proud of all the things I have today because I work hard and have two beautiful children..(with two different women..LOL), had to deal some sick women along the way too, but I'm a survivor and will continue to be, and also be a great dad.

I know its deep , but you asked.

Sounds like The Corner (everybody knows The Wire but you should see this series if you never have). That's a rough upbringing... makes it that much better when you make it out the other end. Sounds like you have and then some, congrats FF.

[RoyalBoyle78]

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Sounds like The Corner (everybody knows The Wire but you should see this series if you never have). That's a rough upbringing... makes it that much better when you make it out the other end. Sounds like you have and then some, congrats FF.

yeah, sometimes it still gets hard, I'm a single father raising my 4 year old boy alone right now, its tough, life still throws me these curve balls but I refuse to put my bat down.

Still trying to resurrect these demons like Em says.

[deaduck]

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It was me.

I stole that kids McFries when he was 6 and framed his opponent.

[wwharton]

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This is a pretty heavy thread. If you don't have anything to contribute, please don't.

And I don't want that to just sound like snarky mod talk directed at one or two posts made. There are some light/humorous stories, but I don't want anyone who has shared to feel like this is taken as a joke. There are a couple of important rules in life that I think everyone should remember.

1. We learn everything in life from our personal experiences or someone else's experiences. There's a lot that can be learned from many experiences shared here.

2. Everyone's unique but no one is alone. There have been some really deep stories shared here, and it may be therapeutic for the poster to share but I'm sure it is equally helpful for many who are reading and have had a similar experience and feel even just a little more comfortable knowing they aren't the only one.

[deaduck]

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I'm not going to pretend I have read every post in the entire thread...But it started with dude admitting he worked out to Huey Lewis and the News...then it had jokes about Burger King bathrooms, shooting a man in Reno, a run of thoughts on the self sexytime urges created by American Gladiators and dozens of other humorous forays.

I'm pretty sure none of those people were trying to make other "heavy" people feel like their experiences were taken lightly. And neither was I, so If I offended anybody...my bad.

But seriously...I don't recall seeing a moderator step in and say the original tone of the thread was light and warn off anybody from bring the mood down.

Just saying.