Deepest, darkest secrets you're willing to share about yourself

[l3ulvl]

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My eating habits don't change, but my drinking habits sure do...

[mb625]

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Not exactly a "deep, dark secret" per se, but given the recent run of conversation...

I've never been broken up with or even had a girlfriend.

[Husker_OS]

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I had a minor breakdown this afternoon and afterwards decided I need to let someone else in on my situation or trying to deal with all of this on my own was going to eventually do serious damage. So I called one of my best friends tonight and told him(and his wife, I was a groomsmen in the wedding 3 months ago) how wrecked I am right now. Spoke to him for about 30 minutes then he put his wife on the phone and I told her about it all to get her advice.

I want her back and I told my ex as much last time I spoke with her. Anyway, both of them came to the conclusion to just give my ex more time and then ask her to get together to talk. Tell her we need to talk and if afterwards we're sure this is over and done with then I'll let her go for good. More waiting, which sucks but I do agree it needs to be done. At that point she'll have had 2 months to either be sure she's right or think maybe she's not sure it should be over. If after 2 months she's sure that she doesn't to be together then I can accept that. But if she's not fully confident in her decision then things don't need to end. I don't want any unresolved relationships in my past. That won't help either of us if we do marry someone else down the road. I've got an ex right now where she ended things and didn't begin to regret until months later and still to this day she hasn't gotten into another relationship. We broke up for good 2 1/2 years ago. I somewhat feel bad for that girl.

[Jr.]

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It's good to hear that you opened up to someone, Husker. It sounds like it helped to get some advice from another party not directly involved.

[AC]

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Good luck, Husker. Glad to know you opened up to someone (besides us at OS )

[HealyMonster]

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Edit, i missed the fly3 thing, just reread and they said move on a few times.. so ill delete what i posted ugh...missed the whole thing. had a good gif tho

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[PVarck31]

I started dating a girl when I was in college shortly after 9/11. During the time we dated I became more and more dependent on her. While I didn't see this clearly, she sure did. This is when my bipolar disorder started to manifest. When you deal with this it's hard to see how it affects others around you. I loved this girl. I dated some girls before her, but I'm pretty sure she was the first girl I was actually in love with.

After about a year and a half she finally broke up with me. I was an absolute mess. I thought about killing myself a lot. I lived alone and my best friend was doing other ****. So he never had time for me. He later apologized for not being there for me.

At this time I hadn't been diagnosed as bipolar. So I was just taking anti depressants. Which do nothing.

I ended up getting g through it and became a better person from it. I was finally diagnosed as bipolar in 2008. I'm on medicine and it's helped keep it under control. Not as well as it needs to be but if I wasn't on the meds it would be a disaster.

I'm happily married now. I have the support of family and friends and learned not to be so dependant on others.

Kind of convoluted story there but it's way to early lol.

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[slickdtc]

Husker story

Damn, this really is tearing you up. Good you reached out to someone outside of OS. Love the virtual advice but sometimes you need that real life talk.

Still wishing for that happy ending. Or at least some real closure and not some BS excuse why you can't get back together and work on what fractured your relationship.

As always, best of luck.

[mgoblue]

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I feel for you all going through relationship issues.

I've had 2 relationships that just tore me up when they ended. It's so hard to let go and move on if you have to. Time does help heal, it sucks, but it helps.

I also had a friend I could vent to that helped me keep things in perspective. I'm glad you guys are talking to people. You can't bear this alone.

[Husker_OS]

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Damn, this really is tearing you up. Good you reached out to someone outside of OS. Love the virtual advice but sometimes you need that real life talk.

Still wishing for that happy ending. Or at least some real closure and not some BS excuse why you can't get back together and work on what fractured your relationship.

As always, best of luck.

It really is. I've been slightly depressed before as most people have in life. You can't really avoid small bouts with depression. But this is to the point to where my faith is the lone thing keeping me going. To be honest it scares the **** out of me that I'm like this. It's not normal.

[Husker_OS]

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It's good to hear that you opened up to someone, Husker. It sounds like it helped to get some advice from another party not directly involved.

It helped some to hear another female's perspective on it. They're just as confused by the whole thing as I am. She's convinved my ex has done it completely out of fear.

The ****ty part about the situation is my ex does have some issues and they aren't new to me. I've known about them for a long time. To be honest the issues never once scared me off or made me question being with her. It's a part of who she is and I feel as though I'm the kind of person she needs in her life. The majority of people out there can't really handle being in a relationship with someone like her but I can. I don't run from things like this. Her mother has bipolar disorder and I can see some of the signs that my ex may have it to an extent. But for some reason it doesn't worry me or make me want to bail. I won't delve too deeply into the religious view on it but I have faith in the relationship and the meaning behind it all.

[seasprite]

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Ive been in your position before Husker and I can promise you things will resolve themselves and you will start to see a clear path moving forward. It definitely helps that you have a strong sense of faith. Hoping good things for you soon.

[Bmore Irish]

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It's funny, I posted in this thread a couple times a while back, but nothing I posted was ever actually a deep, dark secret. I'm too ashamed of my real secrets. I can definitely relate to what some people in here have talked about, though.

I can think of a particular time in my life, which I may have briefly mentioned in here before, when being able to read and relate to other peoples' experiences/problems would've really helped. I know how much it hurts when you feel like you can't talk to anyone about what you're feeling, but when you finally do, it's such a liberating feeling.

I guess I'm still a fairly troubled person, but I'm just so happy that things have gotten better from how they were several years ago.

I hope everyone here who has had recent troubles can hang in there and find peace. Know that you're not alone. There's always someone out there you can talk to, even on a sports/gaming website, and you may be able to help each other. Things really do get better. It may take some time, but they get better.

[Jr.]

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It helped some to hear another female's perspective on it. They're just as confused by the whole thing as I am. She's convinved my ex has done it completely out of fear.

The ****ty part about the situation is my ex does have some issues and they aren't new to me. I've known about them for a long time. To be honest the issues never once scared me off or made me question being with her. It's a part of who she is and I feel as though I'm the kind of person she needs in her life. The majority of people out there can't really handle being in a relationship with someone like her but I can. I don't run from things like this. Her mother has bipolar disorder and I can see some of the signs that my ex may have it to an extent. But for some reason it doesn't worry me or make me want to bail. I won't delve too deeply into the religious view on it but I have faith in the relationship and the meaning behind it all.

I know that feeling of trying to understand something you don't. What ultimately helped me was completely letting it go and stop trying to understand. Not saying it was easy.. it took me about 6 months to do it, but I eventually was able to.

[mgoblue]

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It helped some to hear another female's perspective on it. They're just as confused by the whole thing as I am. She's convinved my ex has done it completely out of fear.

The ****ty part about the situation is my ex does have some issues and they aren't new to me. I've known about them for a long time. To be honest the issues never once scared me off or made me question being with her. It's a part of who she is and I feel as though I'm the kind of person she needs in her life. The majority of people out there can't really handle being in a relationship with someone like her but I can. I don't run from things like this. Her mother has bipolar disorder and I can see some of the signs that my ex may have it to an extent. But for some reason it doesn't worry me or make me want to bail. I won't delve too deeply into the religious view on it but I have faith in the relationship and the meaning behind it all.

It's great you could get your friend and his wife to help you analyze the situation. They're outside you and your ex, so they can (or should) be brutally honest with you. They'll help you make a smart decision for you, rather than just pining for your ex.

Just helps to know that you're not just holding on when you should give up. After a break up everyone's logic gets cloudy.