Worst Day of MY Life

[cam21224]

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Almost broke down in tears for you at work, sorry for your loss Bullitt. I can't even begin to imagine to feel your pain, that's rough losing a child, you'll feel better with more time.

Remember she will never be gone for she will always be in your heart, as well as her school members and friends, as evidence of the great gesture, shows they'll never forget her and loved her too.

Did you end up going or get your copy yet?

[Bullit]

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Thanks for the thoughts guys. I decided not to go. As much as I wanted to I was more worried about bringing sadness to her friends on such a big day in their lives.

I have not received my copy yet but I have talked to her best friend who graduated from a different school and we have all felt her a lot lately.

Things are moving now. We only have to wait until the 17th of this month for closing on the house and then we close on the house we are moving to the next day. I have replaced the car that I had bought for her with my new Jeep. My daughter had always wanted one and I just felt really at peace when I went to test drive it, so I went ahead and picked it up.

I have actually started seriously looking for work as well. Not sure what I want to be when I grow up but at least now I really feel like I am strong enough to get back to some of these things that we take for granted sometimes.

Thanks again everybody for letting me have this space and I really appreciate you thoughts and prayers.

[Bullit]

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Well guys it's moving day.! House is sold, closing is done on both houses. We are loading the trucks and moving into the new house tomorrow.

I'm rreally struggling emotionally today. I know I'm not leaving her or anything like tha. I just am mmissing her even more than usual today.

Keep us in your thoughts today and I will touch base and check in when the move is over.

Thanks guys I appreciate you all

[HustlinOwl]

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Congrats and best of luck brother you will always remain in our thoughts and prayers

[Padgoi]

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I have a 2 year old daughter and literally just shed a tear reading this. I'm sorry for your loss.
Good luck with everything. You seem to be doing better now which shows just how strong you really are as a person. Your daughter is smiling right now, knowing how strong her daddy is. Best of luck!

[GAMEC0CK2002]

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Glad to hear the update. Just keeping taking it one day at a time. Good luck.

[Bullit]

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Well guys today is the 2 year anniversary of the passing of my wonderful Cricket.

Two years?

I can honestly say this is the longest, hardest, darkest road I have ever walked in my life.

But as of now the road has gotten a little easier to walk. We have finally finished the move to the house out in the country. Just getting out of the old house helped a whole lot. The new house is wonderful. So far out in the country, its peaceful and quiet. One of our friends from church gave us a bench with a plaque for Cricket and we have put it in the yard. We are planting some Butterfly bushes around it and made a nice little place in the yard to sit and talk.

I have learned a lot about myself on this journey. I am stronger than I thought I was. I also know that I am going to miss her forever until I get called home as well. The pain is always going to be a part of my life. But that is ok. My wife found a saying that if you look deep into your pain you will find that what gives you the most pain was the thing that gave you the most joy. So I know that for the rest of my life there are going to be days that I am just sad and hurt and that it is ok.

I have also learned to be easier on myself, through this. I have really worked on letting things go and realizing that there is no fault in this. There is no blame or reason for this. It just is. I am a good man, a good father and a good husband.

I am in the process of starting my own business. Working for other is just not in me any more. I think thru this I have lost a little patience in dealing with the general public and I am not loosing myself in work like I used to do. The goal now is to work to live not live to work.

I also want to say thank you to each and every one of you wonderful folks on here at OS. I truly feel blessed to have this community of friends and dare I say family who have supported me through this difficult time.

A special nod to Dan, Flight, BLZR, Knight, Russel SCEA, Happy, Noob, Countryboy and so many others THANK YOU. For all of you thank you for letting me have this spot thru the years and I will keep walking this road. See you all at Christmas and know that you all are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love you all

[Flightwhite24]

Worst Day of MY Life

Bullit your story for me has sent some positive vibes my way. There is not a day that goes by that I don't tell my wife/kids how much I love them and cherish them and I attribute that to you, your family and your story.

I want to personally say THANK YOU SO MUCH to you and Miss Cricket because your story has helped me become a better husband and father. God Bless you and your family.


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[8]

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I echo the same thoughts as Flight. You and your story have made me a better father to my 4 year old girl, no doubt about it.

[Lieutenant Dan]

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Great to see you healing, man. Thanks so much for updating us. I think you have come a long way since this thread started.

Cheers to you and all of the great posters who contributed here.

[Hockeynut99]

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Glad to see you coping with this tragic loss. You and your family are in my prayers. I never loss a child but did an older brother at age 33. Just keep taking it day by day.

[RockinDaMike]

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Your healing is inspiring, I've read all your post and thank you for sharing your heart with us.

I'm glad you're also taking a big step in doing your own business. I'm doing it as well, it's super hard but i know its the right thing and it feels great. If you don't mind posting what business are you starting?

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[roadman]

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This was a very touching update, Bullit!

As you helped many in this thread to become better in their lives, I'm sure you are reaching out to others who have endured losses similar to yours.

Peace for the upcoming holidays!

[Bullit]

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Just a real quick update folks. Today Cricket would have been 19 years old can you believe that. Halfway thru her freshman year at University, truly on her way to becoming the amazing woman I always hoped she would be.

Things are going pretty good. New business is taking off nice and steady, things are starting to fall into place. I survived another round of Holidays. But this one is hard and today I am struggling, been in tears all morning. Of course I miss her very much but I think today I am sad for things that were to come.

I hope you all had wonderful Holidays and great times with your families and thank you again for being here for me. I appreciate you all so much and blessed to have such good friends.

[RyanLaFalce]

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Never ever thought I would get on OS and get sad. Thank you for sharing your story Bullit and I'm very sorry for your loss.